i don’t even want to type this, but i just uploaded pics from my camera to my laptop and then deleted the pics from my camera and turned it off, only to realize that they had not completed uploading? wtf!?
learning to let go. doesn’t do any good to dwell on things longer than a moment. be strong. carry on, as they say.
i was so looking forward to looking at those pics and using them on my blog.
don’t really feel inspired to take pics right now.
i was up at four AM.
i have ridden over thirty miles on my bike in the past few days.
uphill against the wind at all points, i swear. seemed like it.
i have a new neighbor or neighbors and
they are not nice and quiet and unassuming like my old neighbor, you hardly knew he was there.
they set up a little seating area on the balcony which we share. they sit there and smoke and chat at all hours and i can no longer keep the front window open because of it.
this apartment complex is a noisy place, at least my neighbors mostly kind of are.
i can live with it, i guess.
today i made traditional lasagna, spinach lasagna, and a bunch of turkey pot pies. it was kind of a training day for me.
i’m really tired but i don’t want to go to sleep, just like a little kid.
too much fun to be had!?
just not enough time to do what i really WANT to do.
all of it taken up by making money to survive.
i’m gonna go read GLP now. (lunatic fringe) ttyl
human beings are capable of a lot of amazingness. talent, skill, ability. dedication, loyalty… compassion.
sometimes i feel motivated other times i don’t.
i can’t honestly say my emotions haven’t dictated much of my life.
people tell me i think too much. they tell me i feel too much.
things take time.
i’ve always thought that i have ‘good timing’
being at the right place at the right time…
but, then again… who’m i kidding?
i don’t know shit!
my life has been nothing short of insane!
i mean, really. come on.
and sometimes i have failed to use proper body mechanics.
a lack of good self-care.
but sometimes i feel this desire to rebel. to do what i FEEL LIKE doing, gosh!
we shall see!
that’s what i always say.
no matter what it is, i have to just do my best to Carrie on.